today

07Jul08

has been a bit shit.  First off, I had CBT, woke up late for it. Got my ebay stuff together to post and tried to get a stain out of a handbag and the aptern decided to come off the handbag so its unsellable. CBT was abismal, just cried for ages. I’m not massively upset over anything but today something just got to me? After I cried I felt better though and nothing bothered me that much walking home, it even rained on me and I didnt care that much! Just felt like lying about doing nothing today so today has pretty much consisted of lying in bed feeling sorry. Then once again something stupid happened, had dinner, then went to the fridge for an ice lolly (one of the only treats I get tbf) and my sister has eaten ALL of them. I had one and she had 9. Thats sharing isnt it? I know its a fucking ice lolly but its the respect thing of the matter, she pigged them all in like 4 days? Then my mum got involved and was like, ‘dont get miserable about it’, miserable? Over an ice lolly? Its the principle, if anyone did that I’d be a bit like wtf. Either say we’re sharing them or not. Its simple.

Now I’m worried I’ve pissed Katie off. We’re supposed to go to Comeback Kid on Friday in Newport. The plans changed a bit and Holly wants to go and see Shauny and hang and go see CBK and its so much easier for me to get in the car with her. I’d have to get up at like 8 to get to London to meet Katie and it costs more before 9 or 12 on the train. I’d be pissed off if someone backed out on me but its loads of hassle and I’ve got limited monies this week as of the amount of shows I’m off to.

Good thing- Ian texted me today to see if I wanted to meet in London tomorrow and go to photography exhibitions. one at the Tate, which I went to with my mum. I think I will meet him anyway and catch up for a bit before going to the Underworld.

Apart from that I just got told something that I’m not thrilled about. I get so attached so easily, its shit. I can either get so attached or not attached at all. Why is it always the wrong way round? I can never trust my judgement and know how much effort to put in. It makes me feel well awakard but I shouldnt be stressing so much over it….let things happen themselves and just be myself I think. It brings my insecurities out.

Great now Dave is being proper weird with me. Impossible to have a proper conversation with atm. I give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Say It Like You Mean It by the Starting Line…so good right now! haha!

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