miles away

19Oct08

My head is gone. Why am I sat here feeling unlovable? Why do I take these signs as a reflection on my character? Can I even handle having a boyfriend right now? Can he handle me? Maybe the big question is, can anybody handle me? I feel like a mess. Soon as I get in [...]

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I am home

12Aug08

and I wish I wasnt! Paris was so much fun, being home in rainy England is terrible. I am coping with the boredom so far, another day though and I might be up the wall. Haha.
Mum is in some kind of ratty mood, on Sunday we went to the gym and she was telling me [...]

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i guess this is late

22Jul08

Taken 3 Zpoiclone and I’m still awake. I just wanna go to sleep. I keep crying. I watched this good film earlier, which shed some wierd impact on things, it was called ‘Where the Heart is’ or along those lines.
Today I pushed my Dad the last chocolate since I think it was a dark one. [...]

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Tags: depression, eating issues, family, medication, sleeping pills, the gym, volunteering